- Location:home
- Music:Ayumi Hamasaki-Memorial Address
Its gonna be end of the year soon. Feels like everything happen in this year is so yesterday. sighz.
Tmr is gonna be another busy day for me. hate it when things happen when im off. damn sucks. Wsh me luck.
- Location:home
- Mood:
cranky - Music:BEP-meet me halfway
Anyway Annual dinner is coming up. Its next month! Just bought this beige V neck dress. Although it looks cheap but i dont care. Dont have that alot of money to buy expensive dress. So excited bout this annual dinner.
WOW! this movie rox! Damn good! I was totally hooked till the end. i practically didnt bothered to tok to my date throughout the whole movie. GReat cast and great storyline! One of the better movies i watch lately!
After the movie, we went for Viet food for dinner. LOve the foods there. YUm yum.
OVerall i enjoyed my date with him. Yes, i got to know him from a football forum. It was a 3am when i watching the match between liverfool and chelsea when we tok and decided to get to know each another more. He is from the states and speaks fluen heavy america english slang. hahha. great guy. hehe.
- Location:office
- Mood:
calm - Music:fallin for you-colbie calilate
Eventhough things are the same, i really hope my sisters will be more independant and stop being too naive. At least now i can breath with ease. Hehe.
I got good news to share. My company gonna have this Mega Annual dinner on september 18. its gonna be at Boulevard, Midvalley. I have no idea what to wear!! Im thinking to wear my nice green dress. hehe. At work, my AGM is giving more credits for my work so that my bosses aware of it. My first ever reports were not bad. hehe .
IM gonna work very hard in order to achieve the assistant manager post!
Im no longer seeing Daniel. I have tried my very best to create sparks with him but unfortunately, he is just not the type of guy i want. we are better off as friends. Sayonara.
- Location:home
- Music:kiss goodbye-WLH
Im quite sure my dad has a backup plan. He is starting a new business and i have no idea what is he gonna do. Right now im just sad that the company he builthas to be discontinued. i think my dad is even sadder than i am.
I told this thing to a few ppl. Out of 10 ppl only 2 ppl gave me support and really showed me concern. The others. i got nothing to say. ITs true what they sad, when times are bad, only true frens will stick by your side.
Im gonna get back to work.
Cioz
- Location:work
- Mood:
sad
Wish me luck and pray for me. I hope this 3 months i will perform well
- Location:home
- Mood:
happy - Music:super junior-sorry sorry
On Monday, i was the first person ever appraised for this half year KPI thingy. Haih! Apparently my performances have drop! Haih! I cant blame my AGM for saying that because me, myself also know i have not been concentrating working properly lately. There is just so many upsetness in my world. Oh well, im still very positive thinking. No matter what happens im going to take challenges one step at a time. Anyway, back to my appraisal, although my performances have drop, My AGM is still giving me a chance to take over finance department. HAHAHAHAA. But in a probation period. So i dowan screw things up yeah? hehe.
Min is coming back!!!! Hehehe. Im so thrilled bout it. Im sure im gonna so busy and no time to date. She alwiz takes up all of my free time with YUM CHAS! hehehe. cant wait for her to be back. Taman sea gang! wohooo
- Location:home
- Music:michael jackson-beat it
Althought im strike with streaks of bad lucks for the past few weeks, i am still very positive! I am not gonna let these little things bring me down. I aint gonna surrender my emotions by being sad and emo all the time. It will affect the people around me and i dont like that. The only thing which is making me very upbeat is im going Perth during christmas for 2 weeks! Im gonna book the damn tickets once i get my salary end of this month! Wohoo.
- Location:home
- Music:Love before-Penny dai
Many times whenever i called a friend of mine. its either never pick up or never reply sms. Whenever this friend of mine needed ppl to be there , this friend would called me. Up until just now, i finally realise what does another fren of mine told me long long time ago bout this person. And now i understand it. I trully understand. Whatever it is, im too old for all these "i friend u and i dont friend u anymore ". Seriously i cant be alwiz expecting this so called 'best buddy' to take a keen interest in everything that i do ,It isn't fair to. But a real friend cares more about how i am doing, than what i'm doing, or what i have amassed along the way. An acquaintance may be physically available on many occasions. But a real friend can offer genuine support no matter how far away he/she happens to reside from me.
Know why until today i still and will keep in touch with my college frens. They were once there for me unconditionally up until the day we fought and we walk into our separate paths. Even if one of them become a Bi, she is still my friend though it hard for me to accept the fact.
I shall stop all these bullshits bout friends. So primary school feel. Lol. Good news to share. My AGm told me, he wants me to look over the finance department. What does it mean? I hope he is hinting bout Promotion cos i want it although im still waiting for Shell's call. Aint no harm for me to take this post right? Lol.
Past few weeks has been a bad bad bad week for me. So many things happen. Bad things happen for a reason. From there i know who was there for me. I wanna say thanks to Soot,SAm, Min, Lim, Jojo,Lily,Daniel,Jam and a few more. Thanks for giving me the courage to face the challenge. I knew i can count on u guys .
- Location:home
- Mood:
blah - Music:taylor swift-breathe
I had a very very bad week.
I just wish all these things would faster get away from me!!!
BTw Transformers rox!
- Location:home
- Music:lifehouse-you and me
Sometimes, I am funny. I like to think I have a good sense of humor. But I do worry,
occasionally, that what I think is funny might not actually be funny.
Oh well.
- Location:office
- Music:taylor swift-love story
I am very dissapointed with the people i know right now. I have to resurface my selective options of friends from now onwards.
- Location:office
- Mood:
exhausted - Music:daugthry-no surprise
Fuck! The radio is playing YMCA. All the memories keep coming back to my head. I feel so upset now. I feel so nostalgic. =(
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Anyway, After lunch... my mood totally changed 360 degrees around. Shell called me again!!!! This time i'm not gonna let this opportunity gone into the drain. I'm gonna figh hard for this job. I wan to be part of shell's family. I wan to earn and have their benefits! WOhooo..I'm so gonna get this job! WEeeeeeee....Definitely made my life so much better now. I am so looking forward for the interview. Im gonna exel! I dont care!
WEeeeeeeeee...hahaha. One more thing, im very happy because my auntie min should be back soon.wohooo..
- Location:office
- Mood:
bouncy - Music:avril lavigne-keep holding on
I had a very pleasent shopping day with jojo at Curve. Bought some clothes. ngek ngek. As usual she bought more than me. Im such a good salesperson! Im alwiz the person persuaing her to buy it. hahaha. And she hates it when i do it all the time. Oh well, kita kan kawan! hahahha. \
Irs 12.24 am. Im the only human still awake in this house. I cant sleep. thoughts is still going through my brain. I cant stop thinking bout it. im a very pessimistic person when it comes to things that might affect me and my family. Haih! I really relaly hope we can make it through this time. i know its hard but i know we can make it. Be positive.. positive!
- Location:home
- Music:chinese song
I wish there is a miracle out there. I wish it wont happen. I do not want to be upset and depress again.
- Location:office
- Music:TI feat JT-Dead and gone
Im going nuts. Please forgive my no sense at all post.
- Location:home
- Music:the tracks of my tears-adam lambert
My contradiction issues is so bad that its eating up my personality and my thinking. I said i like him and i want to be with him but my actions speak other wise. Its like i keep finding excuses for myself so i cant be with him. I have no idea what am i thinking. I think he gonna give up soon. i have that feeling. HAIH.
I cant think straight any longer.........
- Location:office
- Music:florida-right around
I am officially 24 years old on 09.05.2009. I am no longer 23 years old. One year ago, i was still a very naive innoncent girl. And a year ago i was still hoping he would come back to my life, but now i am happy he is happy with his new girl who is better than me. And i am very excited for him to have a girl who has the same passion as him unlike me. I know all of my friends hated and knowing he doesnt deserve me. He may not be the best looking guy out there or fits into any of my dream guy criterias, but he is sure a damn nice guy who will always be there for me whenever i needed him. SOmetimes, i misses his smses and his msges to find out where am i or what im doing. Sometimes, it occured into my mind that what would it be if i didnt let him go and kept him by my side. Would things be different now? I have no idea. But one year later, i am seeing a guy who is also a total contrast of all the guys i have dated. I enjoyed this relationship at the moment whereby i am not entirely commited to him and i can do whatever i want as long i didnt 'curang' again. HAha. It was a 2 weeks mistakes. I have awake and i will not make the same mistake which almost destroy our relationship. And i am glad that nite i bump into him with my peeps. Auntie Soo ting totally hit me with a reality on my face with' whats wrong with you' face. Haha.
Telling truth, i am at office now. I am filled with loads of paper works and i am so lazy to do anything. I guess i am bored with the same repititive job everyday. I think this boredom will lead me to a resignation zone sooner or later. I am already started to look around in Jobstreet for potential applications. It's a sign my heart has left this company and by June if i still dont get whatever i want, i will tender. I have calculated my salary and i dont think its sufficient to cover all of my heavy expenses escpecially allowances to my parents. Do not ask me how much i gave them. sighz. Im bored of discussing this matter to ppl. All i can say that i am not that fortunate like my friends who have understanding and alway be there parents. sighz. I was pretty upset on Mother's day when my dad didnt have the initiative to bring my grandmother out for dinner. Yes, he had his early dinner in Kampar, Perak but he shouldnt just leave my grandma just like that. My grandma was very upset and i cant stand seeing my grandma being sad. If my uncle still alive, he would be there to take my grandma out to shop and eat anything she wants. Everything changes when he passed away. My grandma no longer smile the same smile 4 years ago. The only thing i can redeem this terrible mother's day is to take her out for dinner. Although its not a very high class place, but i know my grandma is happy. i know she loves me as much as i love her. I can never imagine my life without my grandma. Sighz. And when that day comes, i might fall into depression once again. Anyway, i was very very angry at my dad for treating my gradnma like that. At that moment, i wan to let them know, i can do exactly same thing to them like what they did to my grandma now. What comes around, goes around. My mom made a big fuss of me taking my gradnma out to dinner but doesnt she see the problems? Its not i do not want to take my mom out but she has to understand, its my responsibility to fulfil my grandma feelings when her own child is not taking her out on mother's day. Moreover, i am very shame to say that my mom is a filial daughter in law. I feel ashame to see what she did to my grandma at times and i get very angry. Which is why until today i still very hesitate to communicate with them.
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- Location:office
- Music:Linkin park
